i can’t remember the last time i was able to sit down and write. it used to be that i would scribble on the corners of papers, napkins, or even just compose poetic prose while walking to class. at any rate, it seems that the creative juices have somehow been sucked out of me. i haven’t written in months and i actually forgot i had a blog until a friend emailed and encouraged me to post again.

it’s funny. i’ve found that i go through phases of self-awareness. at times, i feel as if i am held by an invisible force in the center of a whirlwind - sounds, colors, words, lives spin around me in a blur……like in the movies, where the confused and yet ultimately triumphant main character stands in the middle of a busy street and gazes intently as the world spins around him like an abstract painting. life is rushing by and it’s all the hero can do to keep up.

people notice - more and more you seem to be staring off into oblivion, pondering something, and someone interrupts your thoughts with a kindly “are you okay?” you nod and make amends for your distracted state of mind.
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